Post by AJ on Jan 27, 2011 20:15:00 GMT -8
AJ )':
I sat in Spy's stall starring blankly at the wall. I had not left the barn in four days. I had only seen a few people and my life was terrible. Spy was not getting any better. If anything he was worse. All I wanted was for him to get better. Jack tried to get me to go back to my cabin or at least go see pegway but I couldn't leave. I just sat there. I would try and urge Spy to eat or drink but he was still only drinking from and IV. He would only move a little bit. I just waited. I kept pushing the onward reality out of my brain but the fact that he was probably not going to make it kept coming back. I wouldn't let it Happen.
The tears were long gone I just couldn't feel anymore. I felt nothing. Nothing at all. Only hurt pounds and pounds of hurt. It was my fault that Spy was in this shape. If I just would have I don't know done something different. I was about to try and get him to eat when someone knocked on his stall door. "Go away." I whispered but they entered anyways.
